I don't feel like writing.

I don't feel like writing and so... I'm going to write. Taking a break from the diaries and just sitting down to let what happens happen. It's February 15. As noted in this little piece i did for Holiday Matinee, I've been religiously jotting down notes from every single day of 2010. And this day was set up to be a real stinker until I sat down here... or had it?

I'm very lucky to work where I do and to do the work that I do. Why today, I helped write and direct a fake TV commercial in the style of all of the low budge local ads we all grew up with. I even did a little bit of acting. I decided to dress up an old empty water jug to resemble a jug of moonshine, complete with the "xxx" marking, and I helped come up with a fun Match-Game-style event I hope to bring to U-Stream tomorrow, along with a lot of fun, interaction, and laughter. So I guess the day wasn't a stinker after all.

But come 5, my brain was fried. I came home, watched a few old DVR's No Reservations, opened a bottle of wine, and began to zone out. And then I sat down here.

I had no plan nor am I formulating one presently. I'm just going to keep writing and see where it takes me.

I need to start writing more music. I am going to now admit something very soul crushing. In the past, oh, 8 months, I have written... ONE song. Wrote and finished, that is. Right around the time that my band Certain People I Know was softly dissolving (and i take a good brunt of the responsibility for this), I decided it would be a good idea to break my right hand... and nothing was really the same after that. The song i wrote was called "All of a Sudden" and it's on the freshly released split 7" with Into It Over It. It's a fitting wrap up for the past 8 months as summarized in the lyric: "From just plain broke to a broken man. We broke up the band and I broke my hand." Just gotta write about what you know I guess. It's got a nice musical progression and vocal melody that you may enjoy if you're not at all interested in my personal issues. Hahaha!

The other song on my side was written by Lauren LoPiccolo and I just snazzed it up a little, even though it was pretty darn great before I heard note 1. It's called "I Do" and the lyrics begin: "The pills, they are the colors of your high school, and when you blink you see just what you wanna do. It's in the way they lay, available, an easy play. It's kinda how I feel about you." When i first heard her demo of it, I thought... this is fucking great and people need to hear it. So yes, please, hear it. I feel bad that i've been so out of it lately and so fortunate that she's there to pick up the slack and then some. We need a name and possibly a few more band members. I originally wanted to call the project Do Your Best And Don't Worry. I guess I have a Morrissey thing. Maybe we'll be called Lucky Lisp or Tony The Pony. Maybe we'll be called Journalists Who Lie or At Amber. Maybe we'll be called My Love Life or The Lazy Sunbathers. Gotta run - Tony's in Istanbul.

Feb 15: Helped write and direct a fake commercial, drank wine, wrote a bunch of nonsense. Hit 'publish', closed laptop.